The Random Truths

None of us saw it coming. He was admitted to a hospital near my house on Sept 1st and was diagnosed with DBD, which he did have. He was still all cheerful and making jokes and conversation at that time. A day later my mother got suspicious of the blood test and asked her doctor friends and they said it might be a case of leukemia. The day after, which was yesterday morning,he was transferred to another hospital, where it was confirmed he had leukemia. We were thinking of getting him abroad for treatment, but we never had the chance. Shortly after maghrib, he began to lose conscious, and passed away at 22.45

My good friends would know that I'm not often in good terms with my dad. My mom used to say we fought a lot because we were so alike. And me being me, it's never easy for me to express my feelings to my immediate family members.

So here are a few things that I'd like to say to my dad.. I won't regret never telling him in person, because in my defense, he knows that's just not that kind of person I am and that would make it really awkward.. Hehe :p

Thank you, for making me who I am. For still thinking about me on your last days, being the foreman yourself during the renovation of the house you and mom bought for me to live in.. For everything.

I'm sorry, for all the hard time I caused you, for all the debate, starting from what time I come home until the choice of high school that I should go to.. For everything

I love you.
Like I said during my "siraman", even though I never say it, I hope you know that I love you so much, and I will be forever grateful, forever in debt, for all those things you've done for me, for everything.

Allahuma firlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fuanhu..

Ya Allah, please forgive all the wrong doings my dad might've done, please accept all his good deeds, and please save him the best space in the house, together with my grandmothers, his brother,and all others who have "come home" before him.. Until it's time for all of us to be reunited with him in heaven.. Amin..

PS: Thank you for your condolences and support,everyone.. It really means a lot to me and my family,knowing that we're not alone in this.. Again, thank you so much..



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