The Random Truths

Quite some time ago, I was involved in this conversation with a very good friend of mine.. he said that I was somewhat the needy type, that cannot survive being alone. I said he was wrong, for I'm not afraid to be alone (normal circumstances ya, of course I fear being alone after watching a horror movie!).. but what I do fear, is being lonely. Because you can be lonely even though you're not alone.. and what that empty feeling strikes you, to me it's just the worst feeling of all..

But I was wrong.. It turns out that feeling lonely on a Sunday night, while rushing to finish an activation brief due on Monday morning is definitely even worse HAHA.. x)

You're right Mbak Lici, sarcasm ala Chandler Bing does work sometimes.. =P

Excuse me.. enough with the blogging, your half-finished brief is waiting!

Tuesday Jan 9, 2007

In the spirit of winning a mini compo with Ipod dock in my division’s Sharing of Joy session yesterday, I did five things that I never thought I could do:

1. Wearing a ripped shirt with Anarchy logo sprayed with Pylox
2. Applying Gothic make up, including the dark red lipstick
3. Not smiling at all in every photo shot taken of me
4. Shouting “Boyband is dead!” (a boyband fan here, ladies and gentlemen!)
5. Jumping and moshing in front of public to the tunes of “Anarchy in the UK” by Sex Pistols—and actually quite enjoying it =P

(This is so not me, right?)


True, they are not really in my list of things to do before I turn 30 (like Phoebe’s list =P), however I’m glad I did all of the above because I don’t think I’ll ever have the chance (or the will!) to do them again any time in the future.

Aah.. The things you’d do to win the big prize.. too bad we didn’t win, but hey, I *think* the others had a really great time.. and being one of the committee, that is almost as rewarding as winning the mini compo…

OK.. maybe I’m being a bit dramatic (read:bullshitting) there =P

So I’m still a bit sad the team didn’t win.. but I really did have a blast.. And getting in touch with your gothic side turned out to be not so bad afterall… I guess Tutut and I have to thank Agus for forcing us to embrace our inner gothic personality hahaha =P

One final shout…

PUNK’S NOT DEAD!!!!!

(The Sex Pistols Wannabes: Agus, Sari,

Gorip, Melda, Riza, Tutut, and Me)

When I joined a Self Healing Class taught by Reza Gunawan, there's this one thing he mentioned while we were on the subject on breathing that particulary sticks on my mind. He said that breathing is life, because if we don't breathe, that would mean we're not alive (Of course). But then he took it a step further, that breathing also gives an example of an important attitude in life: letting go. When we breathe in, we're taking the gift of life, but at some point, we have to let go of the gift by exhaling.. because if you hold it for too long then it would be a poison for you. Same thing in life, sometimes we try so hard not to let go.. when we should have done it willingly, because that's what's best for us..

Still on the subject of breathing, there's this song when I was in high school called "Exhale" (parts of the lyrics are at the end of the post in case you're curious, who knows it might ring a bell), it's a soundtrack of the movie "Waiting to Exhale", starred by Whitney Houston (of course she also sings the main song, naturally).. I've always thought that this was a good song for the broken hearted, but I never really understood the meaning of the exhale part, (Maybe because I never did watch the movie, but anyway..) but remembering the analogy on breathing from Reza, and combined with personal experience.. I think I now know what the song means when it's talking about exhaling..

Exhaling means letting go.. Letting go of the things that you wish you could keep forever, but cannot.. because it's not what God (and life) has in store for you.. And it's something that you just have to do, because if you don't exhale, then you will be blocking the way for the next gift of life to come, just like when another breath comes after you exhale.

I hope this New Year will be my moment to exhale.. so I can continue receiving my next gift of life. Happy New Year to all.. may you be blessed with better achievements than the previous years.. and may the gifts of life keep coming your way.. Cheers!


"Everyone falls in love sometime
Sometimes it's wrong
And sometimes it's right
For every win
Someone must fail
But there comes a point when
When we exhale

Sometimes you'll laugh
Sometimes you'll cry
Life never tells us The when's or why's
When you've got friends to wish you well
You'll find a point when You will exhale"

PS:
To all my friends who have been wishing me well.. Thank you so much..
A time to exhale will come soon for me, I know it will..
Love you all.. =)